Inner Thoughts

Formspring.me

2010-06-16T23:14:00.005+08:00

I am clueless on what to blog about right now, so, if you want to suggest anything (particularly what you want me to talk about), let me know here! And I accept random questions from you too :)

http://formspring.me/kaymania

Nurul Atiqah Khir

2010-05-30T19:01:00.013+08:00

... is one of the greatest people I have in my life. The first time I saw her, 7 years ago, it never crossed my mind that she would somehow be the sister I have never had. In fact, I thought she was a bimbo. Clad with a Barbie knapsack and pink ribbons all over her hair during her first day in class, it was pretty easy to assume that she was a bimbo. (I liked Barbies myself, but I never really called myself a bimbo because... well, who would label themselves as bimbos? lol)

But I grew fonder of her as time passed by. I started seeing the beauty within her and the fact that we had a lot of things in common. We both had a fetish for Barbies. We loved Britney Spears and have had thoughts about marrying Ken a.k.a. Barbie's boyfriend who doesn't have a "woohooo" down there (Ok, out of topic)

The two of us are extremely close, that once, there was a rumour spreading like wild fire in school saying that the two of us were dating! We figured it would be hilarious to just go with the flow, so, whenever the two of us were together, we were holding hands. Man, I can still remember their faces. Priceless.

People kept assuming that our relationship would deteriorate when I moved to another school in 2009. There was even a girl who said that we would drift so far apart, that we won't even recognise each other in the future. Obviously, they were wrong ;)

The funny thing about our relationship is that she seeks me for advice about her love life. ME, who has no clue about maintaining a steady boy-girl relationship. And she claims that I am good at it. I don't know whether to be flattered or lonely (Because I give advice about love when I have never even been in a relationship with a guy) with that statement.

Atiqah has always been a gem of a girl. She's caring, she's kind, she's everything you seek for in a best friend. I love her with all my heart and nothing in the world is going to change that.

Who is your Atiqah? :)

I Guess I am Back?

2010-05-30T18:54:00.002+08:00

I am going start blogging here again. Nothing fancy, just.. you know, random shit that happens in my life. After trying out Tumblr, I still find this the best place to say whatever I want to say, when I want to say.

(And because I miss Blogger. Bleh :P)

So, expect more random stuffs from now onwards!
I love you, followers for not giving up on me :)

Sorry, Sorry

2010-02-12T18:11:00.003+08:00

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Christmas, New Year and... Short Hair.

2009-12-29T21:44:00.002+08:00

Guess Who Wears Glasses Now?

2009-11-15T12:29:00.001+08:00

ME! -___-

Procrastination

2009-10-21T23:01:00.026+08:00

To avoid studying Physics,

MAKE OUT WITH YOUR WEBCAM

Pulling off a cute and innocent look. FAIL.

Pulling off a bimbotic look. PASS.

Being excited over a packet of Jacobs because I am that lame. (And because there was no other thing in my room to camwhore with)

Showing off my Tiger key chain! I have a Piglet, too, ya know. *gives a smug macam taik look*

Eye balls will drop any minute now.....

This is me being nerdy.

This is me trying to look like a member of the Bee Gees. (The stoned look is a plus)

This is me being Kanye; Complete with the douchebag facial expression. Douchebag according to Urbandictionary.com : "Someone who has surpassed the levels of jerk and asshole, however not yet reached fucker or motherfucker."

Me being a ninja with a mental disorder.

AND!!!!

.........

Maybe I really have a mental disorder.

Succession in a Pond

2009-10-12T16:01:00.006+08:00

A Biology project my team and I made during the 1 week break. Not too shabby ey?

Do not laugh at my sexy voice :P

2009? 2010?

2009-10-05T17:54:00.010+08:00

Farah / Me

****

Aunty, mau beli satu kotak Ice Lemon Tea.

Eeee, aku mau juga! Kejap, korek duit.

*got hers*

Wuina Kay, ais ba minumannya ni!!! :D

HAH YA KAH?! :D :D :D

Sedapnyaaaaa! Tapi terlebih masam pula ni. Yang macam masam suda basi tu ba

*got mine*

Iya kan! Macam pula ooo *continued drinking*

*Farah was able to look at the expiry date (which was 28/05/2010) while sipping her drink*

UI!!! KITA TAHUN NI 2010 KA 2009 ??!!

-________- ASTAGA

Back to the Past

2009-09-20T23:54:00.075+08:00

I LOVE every bit of my childhood.

My life was so simple back then. I didn't have to worry about exams (I used to think that exams were like homework- only they were done in school -_-), I didn't have to face peer pressure and I certainly didn't know how to curse :P

I was going through an old folder when I realised all these. It made me remember all the good times I had when I was little, and that made me smile :)

It also made me realise that I gained a lot of weight over the years (You'll see what I mean in a bit)

Anyway, photos to make this post a little bit more interesting :

Me at the age of 8.

I was born a poser, no doubt :P

I was cute, no? *Ehem*

Barbie dolls; my favourite thing in the world, back then. My obsession with Barbie was like my obsession with Twitter, now. That obsessed. (Only people who follow me on Twitter understand what I mean :P)

My cousins and I in my used-to-be room. I slept in that room for like a week and then moved out. It was because of the two red beady eyes I saw outside my window. Until this day, after 6 years, I have never slept in that room.

The original McDonald's tauke. I even had a McDonald's cash register and play money, which my dad printed for me. I loved pretending to be a cashier. Pressing the buttons on that toy made me feel on top of the world. I felt like I was all grown up (I don't have the slightest idea why I was happy to feel old -_-)

I look like that granny from Little Red Riding Hood, only more hip because I had a velcro wallet from Sustagen.

My twin sister, Katrina Claire :P

This picture has never failed to make me smile. It reminds me of one of the best childhood memories I have. I remember every single bit of what had happened, and I don't ever want to forget it :) Click here to know what happened that night.

Li May, Jazz and I. All three of us were in a "Britney Spears phase". We memorised all of her songs. We also knew the steps to her song 'Opps! I did it Again'. I remember the three of us jumping around when we found out that Britney was dating Justin Timberlake. We made complete fools out of ourselves by screaming and shaking our butts at the side of the road.

This was during my 7th birthday party. I was telling my aunt that I couldn't put out the candles, when my cousin decided to settle the problem himself. So that explains the picture above.

Swimming lessons in the Philippines, 2005. I didn't enjoy it, AT ALL. It was stressful to learn how to swim because I had (still have) a fear of water. I thought it wasn't going to be so hard overcoming my fears. Men, I was so wrong.

I hardly recognise myself here. I look different! These two girls are my cousins, (l-r) Jackie and Camille. Camille looks like she was trying to drink the water O.o

This was what I meant with "I gained a lot of weight over the years". This is a picture of me, taken 4 years ago. I looked like a skeleton- Not good. My face was slim - Very good.

Chicken legs alert!

Me and the infamous boy who blew my candles.

One of the proudest moments of my life. I came home drenched in my own sweat because I was jumping like a mad bulldog in my school bus. This was during the first grade- when I managed to score my exam papers and shut the mouth of my classmate who kept telling me that her mother was going to buy her 12 boxes of coloured pencils if she managed to beat me, and get the number 1 spot in class. BOOYA!

OMG! I was a lala -_-

Cousin Jackie and I in my aunt's living room. We took quite a number of shots together on that day and this was the only one where she smiled. This was a candid shot, actually. She didn't plan on smiling. JACKIE, I HOPE YOU SEE THIS >:D

I also liked playing computer games. I had a fetish for Chun Li, that girl in Street Fighter. Counter-strike was another game I loved, until my younger cousin discovered cheat codes for it. I became an anti-Counter-strike because I kept losing to my cousin who used those stupid codes.

I was really into sports. I enjoyed cycling, skating, playing badminton with my dad and playing with my skipping rope. I have a photo of myself jumping with my skipping rope, but I dare not post it here because my pants were falling down, and my underwear was visible -__-

I made my P.E. pants look like they were high-waisted mom jeans.

I was submerged under a huge wave of nostalgia when I was going through all these photos. I felt like going back and being a little girl again. I wanted to savour every ounce of these moments once more. But, if I really had the power to turn back time, and relive all these, I wouldn't. I wouldn't go back and experience them all over again. I would leave them, just the way they are- Not because I don't cherish them, but because I want them to stay precious and unique. All these memories mean a lot to me, and I would never trade them for the world.

My Attempt to Use Photoshop

2009-09-12T20:08:00.025+08:00

Before

After

Did Adjustments on her:
- Hair colour (duh! the most obvious part)
- Eyebrows; Eyebrows' colour/shape
- Eye shadow and Eyeliner
- Eyes; I made them lighter and I think they look more sparkly. I don't know about you, la.
- Face; Made it slimmer.
- Blusher; I added more orange, but it's not really obvious in the picture.
- Lips; Made it smaller.

Here's a GIF image, so you can see the changes clearer.

It's not really neat. There are a few strands of hair left uncoloured, and the adjustment I did on her face is not fine (You can see "bumps", especially on the right side)

BUT, I am satisfied. This is my first attempt and I think it's not too shabby. I kind of like it :)

And Emma looks gothic. Lol

Andy Murray

2009-09-10T19:48:00.008+08:00

The hottest tennis player EVER to walk on the face of the Earth ♥

Things Katrina did for the whole week

2009-09-03T21:34:00.007+08:00

Monday

I didn't do anything much that day. Took the whole day for granted by lazying around at home, eating eating eating, and hogging the television. I tried to study but nothing went into my dumbass brain. I was a little bit depressed because school was about to reopen the next day (A one week break is not enough for me!)

Tuesday

I woke up having a slight fever, but managed to go to school. I was so happy that I understood my Chemistry lesson, that it made me gay the whole day :)

Wednesday

I was absent. Woke up feeling numb all over my body and that made me shit-scared. I forced myself to get up and prepare for school, but in the end, I decided not to go because I was afraid that I might collapse in school. 3/4 of the day was spent by lying on the couch, watching tv. Very productive.

Thursday

School was dull. We did revisions for most of the subjects. Had a really hot debate during P.E about stress. It was pretty hilarious, because both of the teams (especially us with our opponents) were shouting at each other with any points they could think of- relevant or not relevant. We even commented about our opponents' seating place. Haha

Friday (Today)

I could hardly focus in class because of my stupid cold. But, I did enjoy Biology. The teacher was in a very good mood. The internet was down when I came home, so I slept the whole afternoon. Again, very productive.

Now, I am wasting my time playing Pet Society. My life is so exciting!! NOT.

We are not Tarzan

2009-08-20T19:30:00.008+08:00

"Ok, i shall start with a short introductory of myself. I'm born in Kuching and currently still staying in Kuching. And NO, i don't live on trees.Kuching is a city, and it's modern, equipt with five stars hotel. the only thing we do not have here is the gigantic hypermarkets.other than that , we have what the west have too." - Melanie of Malaysia Students Blog

This is something we should shove in the faces of people who believe that we, East Malaysians, still live on trees, peeling bananas and practically living our lives like Orang Utans (which I can say, is pretty much what Sabah is famous for. The only con to that is - some of them think that we ARE Orang Utans, wtf)

But I'd like to make a correction with this statement;

1Borneo is a hypermarket ;)

Yearbook Photos of 2008

2009-08-14T17:34:00.004+08:00

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I miss you, mates! :(

I miss the times we spent together. All the mess we made, all the things we did; nothing in this world can ever replace that. Despite the fact that most of us go to different schools now, I still hope that one day, us, monkeys of 3B 2008 will reunite and conquer the world. Ha!

I just love you guys :)

This photo does not do any justice! I look fat. Fat fat fat. What were they thinking when they decided to include my gay face in this section?! Everybody else looks good here while I look retarded.

It's not fair, ya'know -__-

Eye Candies

2009-08-12T14:27:00.020+08:00

Give me these, and I'll cherish you with all my heart :)

Think About It

2009-08-03T21:58:00.003+08:00

"When you were young, you are so naive and innocent. You don't need to know things, people will be there for you and protect you; somehow now, we gotta handle things by our own... however when you look back, these people still will be there for you and support you." - Catherina Wong

Ha ha He he Hu hu

2009-08-02T16:52:00.007+08:00

You don't wanna mess with my nerdy side :P

I am blogging this merely because I don't feel so good and just in case this is my last blog post, you'll remember my existance and the fact that I'll haunt you when I cross-over.

Ha ha, you think I am kidding? :P

My weeks have been pretty hectic. With the swine flu going around, only makes things worse. I was absent last week (as in, the whole week) due to stomach cramps. And also because I wanted to avoid H1N1 for a week. Stoopid.

So basically, I missed a week's worth of lessons. How am I going to catch up with that, you ask? -- I don't know/ Yet to figure out how/ Not going to/ *insert lame excuse here*

The moral of the story is,

Don't suck on limes when you know your period is coming and don't be stupid by avoiding the swine flu. It'll come after you anyway :P

Darn You, Blood-Sucking Beast

2009-07-16T01:37:00.005+08:00

I have been trying to kill a mosquito for 2 hours now.

Everytime I raise my hands, it just dissapears and I can't find it anymore.

But when I stop looking for it, it just reappears in front of me in a sort of "ne ne ne, you can't catch me" vibe.

Simply put it this way;

The shitty mosquito is challenging me.

This.Means.War.

The Photo Says It All

2009-07-05T09:54:00.002+08:00

Life, Oh Life

2009-07-02T07:55:00.021+08:00

I think my family members secretly wish that I am girly girl (Or if not, the little girl I used to be who was obsessed with skirts, sky-high heels and dresses). They have always allured me into buying halter tops, baby doll dresses and high heels. But they never really work. Hah.

Ok, so, I am not a girly girl. I don't wear minis and heels. I don't like dresses and spaghetti tops. I like graphic tees, jeans, sneakers, sandals.

What is the big deal?

That I dress like a tomboy? That people might think that I am a "wild child"?

If yeah, then they should just go eff themselves.

Never EVER judge a person by how he/she dresses. You'll never know who that person really is if you keep making interpretations based on how he/she looks.

That is just unfair. You are unfair if you do so.

I am not typing this to be "emo" but I just wish that people would see things at a different perspective and not be too rigid.

If a little girl prefers geeking up in front of the computer rather than playing with her Barbie doll, then let her. If a teenager wants to become a teacher, then let him. Don't just push him aside because you want him to become a lawyer.

Life is all about choices, experiments. It gives us a chance to explore it in ways we would have never imagine. No one should live in a box. Go out and see the world, try different things, and find out who you really are.

'Cause when you find that piece of you that somehow has been missing, you'll know, it was worth the troubles you went through ;)

Ok, so tell me, how did "the way I dress up" turn into some sort of philosophical life entry?

Songs That Remind Me Of Certain Events

2009-06-30T19:28:00.006+08:00

Have you ever had a nostalgic feeling when you listen to a song? It's as if you are reliving a memory from your past.

It is crazy (and not to mention, weird) how a simple song can remind you of all sorts of things. Whether it was about scoring your Add Maths test, getting your dream car or being asked out by a guy, there are just some songs which stick to your head, even after so many years.

I don't know about you but I do get this feeling. Certain songs remind of certain events that have happened in my life.

It's not like I tell myself "Oh, you should relate Graduation by Vitamin C with the class party you had last year because it is a perfect song to tell you that you and your friends are separating" - no. It just... naturally happens.

Sometimes the song doesn't even portray what you feel at that moment. Like, Bubbly by Colbie Caillat may remind you of the time when you got a bad grade for Maths, and I'm Yours by Jason Mraz may brings flashbacks of the fight you had with your best friend.

Weird huh?

So, I guess you want to know the list of songs that remind me of certain events ;)

1. My humps by the Black Eyed Peas

This reminds me of the time I stayed over at my cousin's place in Tawau, in 2006. Back then, this song was on every radio station and eventually, it got stuck in all of our heads.

So, we were dancing and singing to this song while we packed our bags for a trip to Pulau Sipadan the next day... and the whole thing led to my cousin, shaking every inch of what God gave him.

He is the one in the middle :D

He even danced (and way longer) to this song in Pulau Sipadan, in front of dozens of people, after we dared him to ;)

The whole dance of his made all of them laugh and he kind of became famous during the trip. People were waving and saying hello to him like he was some kind of datuk. -.-"

2. Hit Me Baby One More Time by Britney Spears

This track reminds me of one of the best childhood memories I have :)

It was Christmas Eve when my cousins and I decided to have a sleepover at my uncle's place in Silam. The drive which usually took about 30 minutes ended up being 3 hours!

The car broke down like every 10 minutes. -_-"

Among all the places that we stopped by, the classiest one had to be the cemetery.

I remember all of us being shit scared and literally hugging ourselves in the car. We were filled with thoughts of what we thought, could possibly happen then (pontianak chasing us around, toyol stealing our chipsmore).

Thinking of that experience now, after 9 years, has never failed to tickle my funny bone :)

This photo was taken shortly after we arrived at my uncle's place - I was so cute then. Haha

3. I Believe by Yolanda Adams

I remember that this was playing on repeat on the day my PMR results came out. My friends thought that I was extremely stressed out because I listened to this song for 6 hours straight.

I was very stressed out and this was the only song that made me feel calm and relaxed. So, I just had to play it on repeat.

However, the real reason why I remember this track is because it was playing when a friend texted me about my results. I will never forget that feeling of satisfaction, of happiness.

Fyi, ever since that day, this song has become one of my my pick-me-up songs :)

So yeah, these are the songs. There are more actually, but these are the only ones I could think of right now.

What songs remind you of certain events? :)

Late Night Procrastination

2009-06-20T23:34:00.009+08:00

What does a person do to escape the piles of homework, the agonising sounds of her cousins talking crap and the thoughts of marrying Lucas Till?

She camwhores like there is no tomorrow.

Oh yeah Oh yeah

Mood Swings

2009-06-14T04:02:00.009+08:00

I seriously hate lower back pain during my period.

I can't sleep properly and my mood swings become unpredictable. I hate it when that happens, it's like I don't know myself anymore.

Like this morning, I went mad because there were 3 strands of hair on my desk. THREE STRANDS. wtf

I also went nuts over the short blackout just now. I went berserk when I saw a leaf in the living room and I felt like choking someone when I heard my neighbour's dog barking like William Hung (gay gay gay).

And to top it all off,

I haven't even finished that post I promised.

Please don't give up on me :(

Adam Lambert

2009-06-05T03:14:00.009+08:00

Even though he didn't win American Idol, I will forever be a fan of Adam Lambert. So what if he is gay? At least he is a hot gay. ;)

And he soo beats Kris Allen's version of No Boundaries. Muahaha

Lalas Are Annoying

2009-06-04T16:40:00.048+08:00

Lalas.

A general word that describes someone who is fcukin annoying. Seriously.

There are a few things you can see in lalas :

1. The never ending 'zzzzzzz' and 'xxxxxxx'

When they email you or send you something, they tend to outdo themselves when it comes to words. You'll see ten 'z' at the end of every word. Like that isn't annoying enough, they spell the words in a way that kills the English language. Take this sentence for instance ;

"How are you today?"

Seems normal eyh? Wait 'till it becomes lala-nized ;

"Hoew arez eiux 2daeyz worhxxxzzzx?"

Some of them even talk like this. It's like you have been sucked into a world where dumb-blondes are the new 'it' thing. Can you imagine talking to someone with that kind of language? Irritates the hell outta me. I mean, come on! Can't you just speak properly?

2. The way they dress

I know that everyone has their own rights in dressing themselves up but when fashion becomes ~~a little bit~~ too much, it turns into annoyance. Yes or no?

Lalas always wear too much make up, hence, proving themselves worthy in entering the circus and becoming the next "bozo the clown".

We all know the phrase, "less is more", right? Well, lalas go for "more is less". They always over-accessorise. They wear A LOT of jewellery. I know things like this show your status or whatever but don't you think that too much of a good thing isn't always so sweet? In fact, it makes a person look like a show-off (and we all know show-off is just a polite term for btich). But as for a lala, well, the more the merrier.

3. The way their photos look like on social sites

Lalas have their trademark when it comes to taking photos - 'the so close, zoom in' type of photos. Their cameras are practically kissing their faces man. And they just look fake.

Let me give you an example for this ;

Lala trademark no. 1 - The forceful looking smile.

The mother of all lala trademarks has to be this. I don't understand why they smile like that. I am sure they have beautiful smiles, but why smile so... tightly? It's like they are hiding something in their mouth. Ada emas ka di dalam tu. -__-"

Lala trademark no. 2 - The peace sign.

They sport the peace in almost every photo. And they do it in that way *points above* . I like peace signs, really. But when a person uses it excessively, it becomes boring, and not to mention, annoying.

Lala trademark no. 3 - The big eyes.

I like big eyes. I adore big eyes. But big eyes like those in the photo just look.... BIG. They don't look natural and they can like pop out any minute. They also remind me of fishes (not a good thing).

Another thing I notice about lala photos is that they take photos of similar poses and upload ALL OF THEM on social sites. (If you don't believe me, go dig in Friendster)

Look at this photo. This is a great example of a lala photo overdose. Who likes going through a photo gallery containing shots that are similar?

(See photos number 2 and 3) Why would you upload photos that look the same? Can't you just upload one? Just because one pair of the eyes is big and the other pair is squinting, doesn't mean that you should upload both to show how "versatile" you can be. -___-"

And notice what I mean with the 'so close, zoom in' type of photos?

I know lalas are good people but they can just be very annoying. Their trends are just........ annoying and that makes everything they do annoying. And everybody dislikes annoying people.

I hold no grudges against lalas. I just dislike their annoyance.

End.

* I am not a lala. The pictures are just examples, ok. -.-

* Count how many times I used the word "annoying" , heh.

Why Make Another Blog?

2009-06-04T14:12:00.002+08:00

"You already have a blog, so why not just set that one on private, instead of creating a new one?"

I know, it looks stupid to create another blog when I can always set http://kaemania.blogspot.com on private. I find it kind of troublesome, to be honest.

But I want to have a blog where I can rant whatever I want without worrying what other people may say. And when I mean other people, I mean, my family members. The fact that they read my blog doesn't allow me to really open up.

Have you not notice that I rarely (or maybe never) curse in my blog?

That's 'cause my uncles and aunts, and also my dad read my blog. My family members aren't really open about kids my age (heh) cursing. I can't even use 'shit'.

But anyway, yeah. That is why I created this blog. I want the freedom to be able to say what I want to say, when I want to say.

You'll see the real Katrina, I guess?

;)